When They Don’t Wanna Go

By nature, I am a person whom doesn’t really thrive or strive to have my inner circle beyond the amount of people that it is right now. I’m not the person that needs, or dreams of a lot of Facebook friends (I have less than 400, and to me that seems like it’s too many). However, keeping with these month’s theme of letting go and embracing new things, you must understand all the people you know, cannot handle all of you.

What do I mean?

There are things you desire to do, need to do, want to do which will not handle what people’s opinion of you, thoughts for you are. It may be subtle or innocuous at first, but if you are not careful, you will miss the initial signs and slights which would make it evident if they can support you.

Sometimes everyone just can’t go. And they aren’t going to go…

Understand that there will come a time where you will have to examine your circle, their motives and their intent on staying in your life as you advance, grow and change. I am not in favor of throwing people away–I don’t believe that you can throw people away. People are not commodities, but they are entities deserving of respect. Just as you are.

The scary thing about changing, about the letting go, is the inevitable loneliness. That sense of being alone in a crowded room and no one knows yours naked–or if they do know, they won’t tell you. That sense of moving along those in the world, in different spheres of the world, is frightening. It is alarming. And it is frightening–especially when you see no one around you making any attempt to do otherwise.

Indeed there is safety in numbers, but often no change–no growth–if the number you are included do not share that drive. In breaking with the number you have hitched yourself to, in the fleeing the fold as it were, you are open for people to criticize, to point out how different you are or becoming, as well as to who they think you are. This must not deter you. It may stop you, but not deter.

A stop is a pause, a deterring or a determent is almost like a paralysis. This type of hinderance in your life is always weights in your pocket, these little foxes in your vineyards, the flies in your ointment. There are these things, these unnecessary pains towards where you must be–because in letting them go you agree they no longer serve you, add to you or will ever help you.

The scariest thing about letting go is the honesty which follows. This is they type of honesty most people don’t give to other people out of being polite, let alone themselves. Revelatory honesty is the honesty that indeed wells up from secret places in your heart–and you know if you were to tell this wealth of honesty, people would leave you anyway.

So, what will you do?

“So you will have to choose between what is right and what is easy.”

-Albus Dumbledore

What is right for you may not be easy, but rewarding.

What is easy may not be right.

It’s easy because it doesn’t require anything.

Letting go will require you, to see you as you wish to be seen.

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